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So run and tell because I bet that y'all ain't fuckin' wit
hotter than oven mitts its nuthin to say suck a dick
you're in a state that maybe makes it hard to wonder if I
spare you no detail for the love of it its un-descript
and see no point in writing 'less its something sick
while waiting for an alien to take me back to mothership
I'm sippin' a Fentimans, daily regimens
vegetable teriyaki for lunch and countin' some Benjamins
since '88 I been aching to take the the cake
because life is just what you make of it, going for mine since'86.
And never share my recipe or baking tips
or talk about another man cuz gossip ain't my favourite dish
so just don't come at me with none of that we'll make it taste delish
not gonna stop til I'm on a beach with my favourite bitch
and all the homies there with one for each it ain't a sitch
always been saying it life is just what you make of it baby
so take it with you since how I been feeling lately's
a little less than desired some assembly's required still
you're never ready when it happens like a fire drill
cause time is moving fast and I'm just tryna stay inspired.
Keeping wacky hours so no wonder that I'm wired
and its hard for me to trust I'm over-sleep and under-tired
used to be involved in stuff but now i turn my back towards...
you probly know the rep so what you askin' for?
So when there's nothing that's left I've come to accept
thats it's just the way that it is it's no waiting and holding breath
cuz it's been so long I been in it though never wanted to win it
Treetrunk and we're taking titles still kick it vital and vivid.
Wanted to rep for my city since I heard "Really Livin"
and I'll keep doing that shit until I'm dead and that's a given,
some disguise I'll justify the ends is still the means
that gets an underline don't wonder why I'll never spill the beans.
Sometimes I feel like my noggin's the only thing I got
probably cause I got a big head and plus I just think a lot
smoking was my vice in life, never did I drink a lot
always wanted shit to be gucci, lately it isn't not.
No longer fuckin' with nothing no more that isn't spot on
and that's my word I keep giving until the gift is gone,
so you can sit and wonder what it is, the shit I'm on
but think you probly know already, blessings from,
the highest up so if you wanna count your lucky stars
then cash 'em in but the ticket won't get you fuckin' far
time is flying by and you're just always wasting that
and I'm a camel travellin' 'til the straw breaks my back.
Patient to practice on, trainin' like a decathlon
and mad pain, inside my bad brain so I'm leaving babylon,
and I aint about to tell you why I ghosted
but the feelings coming back ever since I been diagnosed.
Can't tell you why this uncertainty's taking over
just feeling it more than ever, ever since sober, been kinda cold
frozen in no position just stick to living in polar caps,
about to show you who I am not what you know me as.
Now the thoughts are constant what if maybe all along,
you might been right about everything and I'm always wrong
anyways the better days are comin' round the bend
but if it doesn't then I guess my bed I'll lay until I'm dead.
Probably not cause no negatives how I'm living
always thinking if I really had no problems I'd be chillin.
All I ever tried to do is be a friend,
now every letter comes back with return to sender on it
maybe I should act in a way that reflects my promise
I feel like life is a posse cut and I'm never on it
and if I was then my verse'd maybe get lost or something
no need to stop production what we need is talk discussion
starve myself when I'm writing a form of discipline,
put you up on the shit I'm on, how I get it in.
Rewards for practices even though I been blacklisted,
nothing to do but just water my plants and cactuses.
I'm 'bout to get up on my shit and be an old man,
I need to take my own advice and let it go,
my health is coming back a bit but you can bet its slow,
spending all this time to break the code and never know.
Azrael:
I guess we'll never know,
I guess we'll never no.
My heart is spread open like a centrefold/
Manifold ways it takes shape like origami folds/
To a stallion from a foal/ a kodiak from a cub/
It's better to let it settle and don't react off the cuff/
Occam's Razor if only that's what it was/
In northern Quebec with aurora borealis above/
My records document all the battles I've won and I've lost/
And I don't mean like it's someone I've fought/
An underrdogg/ a jobber/ going above and beyond/
Life is a melody medley/ I just hum along/ like there's nothing wrong/
What we puffin on Chad/ this bud is a strong strain/
Steer it like a coxswain/
By any measure the pleasure isn't treasure/ it's absence is not pain/
Always aim for the long range/
About to show you who I am not what you know me as/
Those who've froze the past like a photograph/ I'm over that/
Didn't lay a vocal track for a couple years because I had to confront the rearing of an ugly head/
A devil on the shoulder and an angel on the other tryna whisper what they will but in one eardrum I'm deaf/
Different pieces of a same whole that's subdivided cuz the mind felt separated from the blood and flesh/
Showing mad appreciation for the last of the duration/
When my time's over Imma die a sudden death//
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Suicide Is A Human Right
You lose ya life, cause suicide is a human right
Suicide is a human right
Suicide is a human right
Yo
Still to let you in on the layer I'm craftin' stuff
I think I'll keep doing this shit until I've had enough
privileged kids in this business who've never had it rough
nobody told you your rapping sucks and its wack as fuck
if you believe in god then you should probly pray to that
keeping it real is just stating facts while I'm making tracks
the oppositions no competition and make me laugh
the type of shit that makes me ask what the fuck do you take me as?
It's Wednesday morning September autumn I'm writin' stuff
I'm posted at the desk with a pen and just rolled the nicest blunt
some people claiming East Vancouver but never from
the city that I live in still putting in work that's never fronted
its unofficial still wont call myself the second son
cause what I said's enough its done and you're left with a head that's spun
remember that we had conversations on Saturday
but I put all my focus on music and different tracks that played
it's safe to say my priorities isn't people
and fuck anybody I don't consider an equal
yeah I got issues and stuff, last to deny it and just accept it
but the older I get, more I get reckless, piffs rolled,
most my life was felt like its spent up inside a fish bowl
I skipped some details but you probly get the gist though
fuck you up and coming rappers up with hammers plus
you must be tripping or at least high as fuck off that bammer dust
with all this forceable writing, no inspiration
its hard to say that I like it not lacking imagination
so I save a little piece of my heart, for the confrontation
been taking my time with everything sorry to keep you waiting
some kids, live their life where opportunities are handed
all my work is never light I'm done with scrutiny and baggage.
Take your brothers hand if you need help to be a man
I'm talking spelling bees no felonies you're selling me a gram
don't try to understand it cause it's magic
like rituals done by witches you're sacrificed in a casket so,
I check a shorties inner light from how she afterglows,
I've mastered flows and I'm practical, it's Chadio.
So introverted it works and I murder verses
if first or second or third with the word I put it down perfect
still a hermit on the surface todays creations are worthless
never claimed to be a wordsmith little bird so keep on chirpin'
Suicide Is A Human Right (x3)
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Free Focus
Check 1, 2 on to this mic I'm holding kid
always dope and still kick if it's inappropriate
and bet I'm always stressed cursed and never blessed
in Surrey now til death no doubt about it second guess
playing chess while you work on solving the Rubix cube
bad at keeping in touch and I'm sorry to those I do it to
some other bullshit that I seem to always take to work
and if you think you ain't a pig then eat a plate of bacon first
just how we go about it holding up society,
sobriety's normal lately it lie to me,
meditating at home and I'm sitting silently
but when they come man though ain't no taking me quietly
life's a thrill when, you develop your skills
and turn it to something tangible get it to pay your bills and
daily I'm learning until the lessons done
love and respect and don't think I'm better than anyone
so maybe need a little something else to add to this
I've heard it all and don't really care if your rapping's sick
it doesnt matter my answer but if you ask me if
I'll tell you "yeah" and that probly makes you a masochist
so if you think you're gonna sink my battleship,
you should probly fuck off with a pitter-patter
my books are open moving on to different chapters
my castheadworks been different since witnessed natural patterns
within my patio lanterns to guide the light for some
maybe I'll hold it for you up until my life is done
and only then I can maybe feel that I'm right for once
pack your bowls, spark your doobies and light your blunts
so until the time is up homie I'm punching clocks
plus the music that your'e putting out is nothing hot
so have an answer when I ask you what your rapping for,
you'll always be the opening act on the rapping tour.
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